Boys

Boys, Boys, Boys.... So a few days or better yet weeks i was prematurely talking to this guy; that my friends friend hook me up with. Yes, he lives out of states miles and miles away from me. I was being a stalker and saw a post he made when he was with his girl 2 years ago. He is a jerk, a dumb ass. I Honestly thought he was one of the good ones... But, yet again i choose a wrong guy now i have sleepless nights. I miss him even though he doesn't miss me. I find it so funny that men get over women so fast. When women take forever to get over him. I am so sad that he doesn't give a fuck about me .... I am going back to my paper that I am almost done with. I am on page 17 and it needs to be 20 pages... I wont sleep tonight again... I might blog again... I want a damn relationship fuck fuck fuck i want a damn relationship damn i fucking deserve someone... There are others that do not even deserve someone, I am sorry to say that, but that is true... I need to focus on loosing my weight to join the army to help others in national needs... I want to tell people of my blogg but i do not want to open that part of my life with others. Because i use this as an outlet...