odium

So much has happened to me these past few months... got hired at a great job and then fell inlove with it... Got fired accussed of something that i did not do... which suxs. I just realized that i have to be supper strong , for the love that I have had towards omeone has turned into ODIUM. I do not want him to touch me or talk to me or anything. I never ment anything. I do not know why i even cared for him. I will be very prudent about this situation a well as pragmatic. Lets call this male figure M... he has yelled to the bottom as well as the top of his lungs "I do not love you that way, and it needs to stop". I ask myself why wouldnt he want to give it a chance we know each other and all... He is not ready for a love like mine. My love is strong worth fighting for worth it all ... Three years is what I have given him... Let me start with the beginning of this this story of hopless love that just leads to hopeless love...